Thursday, June 24, 2010

New Directions

"A great secret of success is to go through life as a man who never gets used up."

--Albert Schweitzer

I've been too silent these last few months, and I'm going to remedy that.

The access to my well of words is a path too easily overgrown with weeds and deadfall; weeks go by without a coherent thought to share and the next thing I know I have to squint to see that track through to my subconscious, that faint trail into 'what I meant to say'. Much of it remained unexplained simply because I had no wish to complain, no wish to blame, no wish to give voice to that great net of unhappy facts to do with things I lacked; a vocation, basic consideration, a workplace that wasn't a minefield of treachery and misapprehension.

Well, someone stomped on the trap release on June 14th, and I bounded off into the woods.

My first week of unemployment was so monumentally busy that I could only pause from time to time to giggle at the supreme lightness of being free from that slow-burning anxiety that woke me almost nightly and guaranteed a slowly deepening Sunday afternoon depression. I am pursuing new possibilities while simply enjoying being able to freely breathe again.

A new adventure is coming.

6 comments:

unfinishedperson.com said...

Hopefully the new adventure includes longer blog posts. :)

Kristen said...

I envy that supreme lightness of being. Is it bad that I wish someone would spring my trap with a pink slip? Sigh...

I hope your adventure is full of awesomeness, and I look forward to more posts! (((hugs)))

Lin said...

It's nice to see an update. I hope the anxiety has lifted and you can enjoy the stillness for a bit--you know, just to prepare for what is to come.

Shieldmaiden96 said...

Himself: I'm sure it will. And I'm not at all dragging you on camping adventures just for blog fodder, I promise.

Kristen: Not bad, but perhaps that same voice that told me "Its time to go" is tapping you on the shoulder as well? This was a job I knew would be relatively brief and finite, I've felt for a while that my time there was part of a larger plan that is still unfolding. Its just nice to have moved on to the more pleasant part of the unfolding!

Lin: Definitely. It feels good to breathe and come back to the center.

Lisa @ Boondock Ramblings said...

It's going to be an awesome ride.

And yes, with more, longer posts. :-)

Tricia said...

I totally missed this post! YIKES and Welcome to the dark side!

It has been over a year since my trap was sprung. I'm still getting unemployment and still hanging in there.

For me it will have to come to an end soon I know but I'm enjoying the ride.